I'm Ready to Get Back to Work but Extremely Guilty About Leaving My Baby!

Updated on December 04, 2009
P.P. asks from Plano, TX
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Hi everyone, I've been a stay-at-home mom for 7 years and I have two daughters, a 7 yo and a 7 month old.
I stayed with my first all these years and have never missed an activity at her school and pretty much been there for her always.
Well this time around I'm ready to work out of the house, while these years have been precious I'm not sure I want to stay at home again with my second child. I feel extremely guilty about it and I'm terrified of leaving her with anyone (my first went to a MDO program for two days a week but times have change and cannot afford now).
even though I could stay home and barely break even with only my husband's salary, I really want to go back to work. I feel tired and grouchy ALL the time, I start thinking about someone else caring for my youngest daughter and I get tears in my eyes thinking something could happen to her if I'm not there.

aside from getting over this horrible feeling of guilt, is there any daycare, sitter, nanny or in home care that you truly fully trust with your children's lives? If you work, how did you overcome this fear? please any experience you can share will help!
thank again!!!

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So What Happened?

Thanks everyone for your responses, yes I do feel tremendous pressure at home to have everything perfect since I'm not working but I feel if I work I will also get the pressure to be super mom and work full time PLUS keep the household running without a glitch.
I feel in my heart it's time for me to go to work but I have found a way to NOT be grumpy while I find that job, for the sake of my kids. My girls are better when I'm happy so I'm going to just take it easy until I find a good part time job first and eventually someday I'll go back to working full time.
In the mean time I'll stay home until my youngest weans from the breast, she is only 8 months now so I still have a few months left to breastfeed her,
thanks to all the mommies who responded, each and every answer is very appreciated, women have to support each other whether we stay home, work full time or part time, we are all in this parenting thing together so it's good to have good advice to count on to make it easier.

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M.C.

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I've been through this situation from both sides--as a child whose mom chose to go back to work, and now as a full-time working mom of a 2.5 year old (and pregnant with #2!). First off, from the child's perspective, I think you make an excellent point that you feel ready to go back to work, and you feel tired and grouchy all the time. When friends asked me (and still sometimes ask me) if I felt upset when my Mom went back to work, I'm always clear that the answer is NO. It was clear to me, even as a young child, that Mom was happy when she was working, and not so much when she wasn't. She was, in short, a better mom when she was happy and fulfilled. I never felt abandoned--all I could tell was that I went to a neighbor's house to play, and Mom was in a much better mood. All good for a 2-year-old!

Now, as an adult, I take that lesson, as well. It IS hard to leave your little one, especially at first. I started DD in an in-home daycare at 9 mos old. I was a bit traumatized, but she LOVED it. It will definitely be harder for you than for the child. We were blessed to find a place where I had no doubt that she was loved and well cared for, and she really blossomed through contact with other children. She's now at a different in-home daycare, but I honestly feel that she is getting better care there than she likely would if she stayed with me all day. They have a structured curriculum where she learns all her shapes, colors, numbers, letters, even beginning Spanish. Her caregiver is truly talented at working with little ones, in ways that I am not. I love my daughter utterly and completely, but I honestly believe that each of us has different God-given talents and abilities. Some are called to be SAHMs, and I have nothing but respect for that. I feel that I am called to teach, and I pray that I help my students every day. Although the juggling is definitely hard at times, it is worth it for me, and I think for my DD, as well. She spends her days in a place where she learns and is loved, and comes home every afternoon to a Mom who is happy and fulfilled. I don't mean to make it sound like any of this is easy--because it's not--but I don't think any choice is necessarily easy. It's about finding what's best for you and your family. There's no such thing as being a perfect Mom--you just need to learn to be the best Mom you can be, in the way that works best for you and your family. That may very well include working outside the home, and you shouldn't feel guilty about that. GL, and God bless!

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L.N.

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Have you considered a work from home job? I am a Mary Kay beauty consultant and I would recommend this to anyone. One of the best ways to network and meet more women is in activities that involve your children. Why not meet new moms with play groups and school activities you don't have to miss. A consultant just had her holiday party and nursed her new baby while selling $200 in products! This would be great for you. If you would like more information let me know and I will send you some plus you can attend a Monday night meeting with me and get a great feel. ____@____.com
Good luck
L.

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T.F.

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I have not been in your situation and I don't know anything about day care providers because I have been a SAHM since before my daughter was born 15 yrs ago on 12/27.

I do know that society puts a lot of pressure on working moms. Some moms are working moms because they have to and they do not deserve to be looked down upon for that. They are doing what is best for their family.

Some moms simply are better moms if they are working outside the home as well as mothering.

As for the moms who stay home, society is sometimes rude to us as well. I have family to this day (who I coose not to associate with) who cannot believe I "wasted" my college degree and left a high paying corporate marketing job to be mom. DUH...I still use that degree everyday, as do most SAHM's.

Whatever you choose to do, Please don't feel guilty. I have thoroughly enjoyed and treasure my SAHM position, however, I truly admire the moms who manage to do it all.

You are a better mother when you are doing what is right for you and your family. If you working outside the home fulfills you then your children will be able to recognize that.

Hopefully you will find a great daycare that will work out for your little ones.

Good luck finding a position you will enjoy.

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