I was in your shoes six months ago. My husband worked 70 hours a week, two jobs. I was home with our son. I love being a stay at home mom. Nothing in my life has fulfilled me more than guiding him everyday.
Yet, there was a point when I saw that my husband was so exhausted and was unhappy. He, obviously, rarely got to see our son. He did the best that he could to do little things with him and me to make our time special.
It finally got to a point one day when I realized neither one of us were living the best that we could be. Why did he have to work two jobs? Why did I feel like all of the housework and decisions for our child were left up to me? I put my foot down and decided I would see what I could do about working part-time. As hard, and I do mean agonizing, as it was for me to make this choice, I had to. I couldn't see one person being well rested and happy and the other one exhausted and frusterated.
We agreed that my husband would quit his second job and I would get one. I work 16 hours a week, I am a hair stylist. I will admit at first I worried my son would "forget" (now I realize how stupid I was to think that) about me. My commitment to my son it still just as strong, if not stronger, than when I didn't work. I realize 16 hours is truly not a large time away, but it helps us out so much. I love that my husband stays home with our son while I work. I have felt proud of myself for making this decision for our familiy. My son hasn't even skipped a beat in his behavior or development. We are a thriving family with the same concerns and problems as everyone else. I just wanted us to have a balanced, sane life.
I know this might not be what your looking for, but I wanted to share my story with you. Life is really what you make of it. There could be ways your could supplement your income, even while staying at home. You don't have to teach for 40 hours a week....Just a thought. Best of luck, I will pray for you and your famiily.
p.s so glad to hear you are nursing....I nursed for a year and it was so great for me and my son!
:)