M.W.
Hello!
I have to say that I honestly feel that you should go with the repeat c-section. 15% is high for fatality. I know that you would like to do a vag birth, sometimes these things aren't meant to happen...especially given your history.
I would go with what your dr says to do!!
On a another note, I understand what you feel when you say that you are sometimes overwhelmed here...especailly coming from Germany! We came back from Germany 2 years ago and were stationed here near DC as well....HUGE difference from Germany!! We LOVED it over there!! In many other areas of the states, the pace isn't soo fast! There are many areas that are much more laid back and have such nice people! It's hit and miss here with the kindness of others! In case you haven't traveled much...just thought I would comment on that!
Good luck to you!