The most important thing I can say to you is this:
GOD BLESS YOU!!!
I admire your courage and commitment to recovery. I am very familiar with alcholism as it affects a member of my immediate family. We did an intervention last year and I learned more in three days than what I have learned in my MBA program. He has had a relapse and I learned even more. The choice for recovery belongs to him and no one else. Just as the choice belongs to you and you have taken that step.
Do not be ashamed. This is a disease. It is not curable but you can be in recovery and it sounds as though you are. Each day is a new beginning for you and each day can also be a struggle. Please know that God or your higher power will guide you.
You have taken the most important step - admitting a problem and seeking help - seeking help for the right reason - that being YOU.
I don't even know you but I am VERY PROUD OF YOU.
Hang in there, remember the motto "one day at a time". Hold your head up high, you should be proud of yourself.
God Bless.
L.