J.H.
My heart goes out to you. Every mothers worse nightmare. I cried when I read your letter . I always tell my husband that babys are angels that god has plucked their wings off and sent them to earth, maybe god needed him back. That is what I would tell my child till they were old enough to understand.I am happy that you are having a baby it is a blessing. Being strong for your kids is hard when your heart hurts but in time it will get better. I lost a child when I was preagnant at age 22 I never saw or held him, I heard his heart beat and felt him but he was dying inside and I was helpless. I swore i would never have kids. And then at age 34 I did. He would have been @12yrs old now. I still think about it and sometimes I do cry. You never can replace them but you can keep your heart open for the others and remember the good.i hope it helps to know that I genuinly care. Take care.