Dearest B. F.,
My only child left for the service last year. I am a widow, so
we were especially bonded. I didn't hear ANYTHING from anywhere or anyone for 23 days. I didn't think it was possible to have your heart ripped out of your chest, feel like your soul had died, and still be alive??? I never knew it was possible for a human being to hurt that bad. My HUSBAND'S death didn't even compare to the pain of greiving a child. I have always dated and I dropped everyone! All my best-friends, men, and family.(And...not to offend any other moms, but, one child at home doesn't replace another, as I had an older nephew and younger neice still with me that I raised) When I did speak to him - he was in the same shape as I had become - totally depressed zompbie. At first I did exactly as you are doing; I went to his base EVERY week-end to visit on base, spent tons of money in gas, hotels, food, dog boarding...it goes on...over compensating buying things from his branch as a "proud mom". Guess what...I hurt him with my feelings. I should have let him go and return a mature, driven adult. Instead...he got married, so he wouldn't have to be alone all the time when I eventually stopped coming soooo much. As someone else said, I should have let him grow up, make new friends, and appreciate me and MY moving on. He can't even tell his wife he loves her even though we always say it! What have I done....please don't follow my steps. I should have weaned this now man from mamma. I am not saying making all at one time...slowly stop going. Call and write weekly- set a day? I think you will find he will grow to be the independent person you want him to be, because God forbid, something happens to you today, he can either be set for a great life with an education and friends, or like you and I, sit around lost. What would you choose for him to feel, or become, in the long-run?
God bless you!