A.,
God loves you so much! He just wants you to love Him. That is what baptism is about--telling people that you have decided to LOVE God. It is the change of heart that is evident in your choices and convictions and actions after you have made this life changing decision. (I'm not saying you're going to be perfect and do what God wants all the time, because after all, we are human.) If you truly meant that you love God and trust him with your life, it doesn't matter if water is anywhere nearby.
If someone was about to die in a desert and wanted to become a Christian, do you think God would say, "Oh, sorry, but you didn't get water on you, so off to Hell you go." He loves us. He wants us in any shape we are in. It is your heart he is after, soaking, damp, or dry.
I will pray that God will show you undeniably and clearly that he absolutely LOVES you.
Blessings to you and your family.