you need to fix this.
when we deny sex to our husbands, they will all of a sudden be tempted elsewhere. all of a sudden, that sweet, pretty coworker is going to look awefully attractive.
talk to your doctor about hormonal issues. talk to your doctor about emotional issues. is there thoughts in the back of your mind that somehow sex is wrong or dirty?? talk to your doctor about that.
you are GOING to lose your husband if you dont get in gear here. i GUARANTEE IT. and not the easy way, where he just leaves you or you mutually decide to separate, im talking hes going to CHEAT on you, RIP your heart out and stomp on it. im not blaming you, im not trying to make you feel bad, but you CAN NOT expect your husband to just go without sex. doesnt it feel good? doesnt it help you bond to him? if those things arent happening, you need to change something. you need to figure
you NEED to listen to some of mark gungor's information that you can find online. and you have to understand it. we women, we need the romance. right? dont you love to be snuggled, or romanced? isnt that what we women live for in relationships? isnt that what we want most from men? well, for men, their need is sex. yeah, it sounds stupid and very "un feminine" of me to say that, but its true. a man wont feel like putting an effort into his marriage unless he is getting his needs fulfilled. what you are doing is putting him and you at a perfect standoff.
listen to mark gungor. go on youtube, go to his website, listen to his radio show and the archives of his radio show. look at the tags underneath some of them and pick some that just say "sex" or something, and see if theres any questions that have been asked that are similar to your problem. im going to almost guarantee that there is.
in fact, here you go. the link to all of mark gungor's shows that have been tagged "sex". theres GOING to be something there that applies to you. in fact, todays episode talks about "If marriage is a sexual contract, can 2 people live together without having sex and it not be a sin?"
its a start. educate yourself. yes, you do and should "force" yourself to please your husband sexually. at least once a week. you will figure out the problem. think of it this way, you have a THREE MONTH OLD!!! low sex drive is TOTALLY normal at that stage!!! so start from scratch. you have a low sex drive because you have a three month old and 3 yr old to take care of. busy moms are usually stressed and dont feel like having sex. i know i dont! and i only have one almost 4 year old! but i do it anyway, and usually i end up enjoying myself.
another tip: the more you have the more you want. what is the most often you have had sex in a week? try going for it every day if you have to force yourself at all, you might as well force yourself every day for a week. not only will this SUPERGLUE your husband to you while you figure it out, this gives you the opportunity to see if you can CREATE a sex drive.
something else to think of: what are you thinking about during sex? are you thinking about your to do list? are you thinking about money? are you thinking about the kids? are you thinking about your mother? are you thinking about work or whatever? STOP IT. LOL. start focusing on your husband. have him blindfold you and run a silk ribbon or feather all over your body. turn on the lights, but no one is allowed to make a sound. if you normally have sex ____ way, then flip it, do it the OPPOSITE of how you normally do it and see (if you usually do it in the dark turn the lights on, vice versa). start paying attention to your body, what your body is feeling, and FOCUS on it.
maybe you have ADHD and cant focus on it. talk to your doctor about that.
the best thing about this situation is that you REALIZE its a problem, and you seem to WANT to change. THAT MEANS THERE IS HOPE!!!
one last thing; involve your husband. tell him what hes doing or not doing that isnt working for you. tell him things that WOULD make you feel close to him. if possible, go for a really nice dinner out, and some necking in the car or something. there is no husband in the WORLD that doesnt want to please his wife, especially in sex! tell him exactly and specifically what you need to get you in the mood, whether its a massage, him reading to you, whatever. figure out what can get you all emotionally ready and mentally ready, so you can be more physically ready.
to end this: like i said in the beginning: GO TO YOUR DOCTOR and rule out hormonal, emotional or other physical challenges that might be causing this. theres nothing wrong with needing and getting help for emotional, hormonal issues. you are a mom of 2 kids! thats a LOT of work!!!
i hope something i said helps you and i hope you arent hurt or offended. you do realize that none of us posting on here really know your situation and all the factors that are involved in your life. so when we say something that doesnt work for you, it doesnt work for you. toss it out (mentally) and move on. dont get upset at us, or hurt because of something we say .
but its important to figure this out.
the thing that i just noticed too is that you say "If I don't fix this problem soon my marriage is in serious danger of ending, which makes me really sad."
really sad. thats it? it doesnt make you devastated?!?! it doesnt make you want to do everything you can to keep this marriage together? if i felt like my husband might leave me, i would be BESIDE myself with greif, even before it happened. it would spring me into ACTION with URGENCY. that sentence alone makes me think you might have a depression issue that you need to get help for. you sound very apathetic where ending your marriage is concerned, and for that reason alone you should most definatly see a doctor about getting some counseling. its not your fault if you have depression, it might even be post partum depression which is SO COMMON because of the hormonal changes you go through after having a baby, and the exhaustion that comes with it. please please please, for your husband, for your children, for YOU, get some help. dont accept a doctor saying "you'll be fine" - get help. even if you have to see another doctor to get.
oh yeah, get some vitamin D3. that might help. ;)