Hi M.,
I am not a step parent, but I was a step child, both my mom and dad had remarried by the time I was 10, so I can give you insight to what a young lady of a divorce is dealing with. Your step kids went from being the only children of a broken, but, normal to them, family where they knew that they were top priority to their parents. Now they are second rate all around. Second to jobs, divorce fights, step parent's kids, step parents, dating?, money issues, it sucks. A divorce takes every aspect of what a child thought was reality and turns it upside down. They have nothing, no identity, no advocates, and a lot of anger. So naturally, a great deal of that anger is directed at a step parent who is stealing their dad's time and favoring her own children.
Look at your description, " w/ two great kids and 2 step kids" Your step kids aren't great I guess. And I am sure that if I picked up on that simple description distinction in your feelings toward the step kids they feel it too. I am not condemning, I just noticed that as soon as I read your post.
What your counselor said is only half right. You do need to step back, but you have every right to have rules and boundaries but you must also realize that your step child is living by at least three different sets of rules now-Dads, yours and moms. That is impossible and insights rebellion, not to be disrespectful, but simply as a self-defense for self -preservation. More than anything your step child needs an advocate. She doesn't need another parent to tell her what to do, she needs someone to understand how difficult her life has become and cut her some slack.
I suggest leveling with her. Tell her how you understand how hard it must be for her to live with so many rules, and how difficult it must be to always feel like the third wheel, second to everyone, and together just you and her, come up with some ideas to make the situation livable. Pick some ground rules you both can live with. For instance, she will be much more likely to respect you and your rules if she sees you being fair.
There is nothing harder than seeing some other child hurt your child, but as much as your instincts tell you to protect your child and come to their defense or aid-you have to learn to be equal handed in your discipline with a step child, give her the benefit of the doubt and even if she explodes and storms off, give her space and then talk it through.
As difficult as it is you are now a female role model in her life, if you can learn to respect her and reach out to her, you will help her heal from the divorce much faster and you will keep your husband from being stuck in the role of mediator or judge and jury, having to chose between you or his child as far as who is right or wrong (a losing situation for everyone).
Don't expect her to love you or treat you like she loves you, but tell her that you want to earn her respect (remember no one gives someone else respect automatically respect is earned by being consistent and fair and kind). Tell her that you will listen if she needs someone to talk to, tell her you will do your best to treat her as an equal member of the family, and that you value her feelings and opinions, when she shares them appropriately. Make PEACE the central model for the home and remind your family to strive toward maintaining peace.
This means that you too will have sacrifices and concessions to make. Decide what is best-pointing out that your step child's room is messier than your child's room or offering to clean it together and helping by purchasing some organizational bins or storage containers. Decide what is best pointing out that your children like a particular food so everyone should eat it, or asking your step child what meals they like and including them in your families meals.
Being a step mom is probably the hardest role any woman will play. It requires sacrifice, the will to go against your own instincts at times, a well of understanding and patience that few saints can master, and the willingness to completely let go of how your life used to be, because that no longer matters, you are in a new marriage and that requires new rules and new attitudes. Clinging to how things used to be will only foster resentment toward the sources of the change (the step kids) which isn't fair-you said "yes" your step child had no control over the situation at all.
Deep down all children desire is for acceptance and even when they begin to see it they will test it-accept that your step child is in your house now and that the old life is gone, but it is NOT your step child's fault, so if you are, stop pointing out to them how things were better, different, more peaceful, when they weren't there. Things were more peaceful, different and you had more freedom when you didn't have you other children, but I doubt that you would ever hold that against them, so don't hold it against your step child.
I don't know if that helps much, because the truth is that as the adult, the responsibility for setting the tone of the household is on your shoulders. You can have peace, but you have to work hard for it.
Good Luck-also consider seeing a counselor that actually deals with blended families, because, I can't believe anyone would expect a step parent to just surrender completely to the whims of a child.
Sincerely,
J.