T.R.
Find an agency. You dont have to go through this alone. To the posters that are trying to change your mind I have serious questions for you. Every child is a gift from God. Adoptive parents think that the timing may be right for them to recieve a child too. If you can not care for the child adoption is the perfect answer. The older children will understand one day. You need to do what is right for your family. Good luck and God Bless you. Choosing adoption is the most selfless thing you can do.