H.A.
Hi B.,
I read your request yesterday and have been wanting to have a minute to write back ever since.
The first year is SO hard on BOTH parents. My husband and I went through a similarly difficult time, as did some of my friends. I think it is normal for a couple to take some time to find a balance after having a baby. If you were happy before the baby came into the picture, please don't give up on your marriage now!
I'm not as much of a go getter as you are, but I do "get things done" more than my husband does. Before the baby it was okay because I had time to do more around the home and also be a loving, supportive wife. But after the baby was born I didn't have any time for my husband and was constantly irritated that he wasn't doing enough around the house or for the baby. I'm also ashamed to say that I was really mean to him because I was so frustrated.
Not to give him too much of an excuse for not taking care of his responsibilities, it might be helpful to think of how hard it must be for your husband if he is getting less of your attention and expected to take on more responsibilities. I had a hard time seeing this because I would say to myself that I had MUCH more responsibilities taking care of our baby than my husband did, the LEAST he could do was take care of things around the house. But I don't think it's that simple.
I'm not sure what suggestions to give besides letting some time pass (but keep trying together!) before making a big decision about your marriage because after the first year it gets easier. As hard as it is, try to be patient and understanding with your husband. I think postpartum hormones played a big part of me being intolerant as well. And I have to also admit that I was reacting from my own frustration of not being as much in control of things as I wanted to be. I think this was actually a huge part of the problem. Also going from having a full-time career to being home all the time with my beautiful baby.
Not sure if any of my experiences sound familiar. Even if they don't, take some time to really work this out with your husband for your sake, for your husband, and especially for your son.
Good luck! Let me know how things go (if you want)!
H.