I also suffer from anxiety attacks and am wondering if our symptoms are the same. I had to leave my job once and go out of state in order to feel better. When I left, the first night, I almost went into the hospital. I also once went into the emergency room and paid cash because I thought I was dying. The only thing that made me feel better was knowing another family member had all these crazy symptoms like numbness, heart flutters, passing out, pains, etc. She told me that she didn't want to be on medication and that she learned how to deal with her attacks on her own. First of all, it is very hard to be a single parent...that could be causing anxiety. Now again, you are dealing with a toddler, ending a relationship, possibly pregnant, and all those other stresses. I honestly believe that your attacks are triggered by the choices that you are making in your life....I am not judging you by any means...I was a teen mother myself. I did learn, however that I had to make the decision to make a life for myself and my child and went to college ( so that I wouldn't have to deal with the financial stresses that my sister of 3 children, as a single teen mother did). I also have been single for many years so that I could focus on myself and my child. I am telling you this because my best friend seems to keep on digging herself into a hole because of her depression. She lost her kids many years ago, the went from one bad relationship to another and got in a lot of debt...her new thing is drugs. I want to see you move beyond anxiety and try other coping mechanisms. Read books about how to deal with anxiety, (I don't know where you live,) but you can go for walks, drives, especially by the ocean; talk on the phone, and the one that works best for me is go to a friend's house and relax. Anxiety is often in the mind....it is also our lifestyle. Lately, I have been trying to find new positive friends that have goals in their lives because my other friends, I am always trying to "fix". That doesn't help me though, although it makes me feel good to help.
I am so glad to hear that you gave life to Sofia and are going to give life to a new baby, if you are indeed pregnant. However, our children do look up to us and need us to make good choices and to provide for them. As a single parent, I know of a lot of programs out there to help single parents who are serious about making changes in their lives....and their children's lives. It's better that you overcome this anxiety now, before it affects your children when they are older. All kids want is for their parents to be happy and secure. Take good care.