G.Y.
Oh my gosh my heart goes out to you....I understand where you are at in life.....My second husband was a cheat....Once a cheat always a cheat, believe me....I stayed in that marriage because of the five children....and I couldn't do it on my own....It was a miserable existance.....I wouldn't do it again....I would of left....If you are a good mother, how could he take your child away???? The courts like to side with the mother.......If you think he has only cheated a few times...think again......You are much better off without him....You deserve a good life with someone that will love you and only you......My husband died at 54 years old....massive heart attack.....Today I am thankful for this..Today I have a very wonderful life without him...The kids are doing better now that he is gone....The main problem I have today.....I just can't do a relationship with a man....I don't trust men at all....My husband is the reason for me being like this......Honestly I like my freedom today....I don't feel caged, drained, or always upset......Today I do have peace in my life......finally.....I wouldn't of wished my life on my worst enemy......trust me.....I thought I loved him too.....In our last conversation together, I told him, I was in love with a man that I flat out couldn't stand.....Today I realize it wasn't love at all.....A man would not do those things if he truly loved you.....We all tend to want what we can't have.....I don't know why this is so true....but it is....Get a lawyer.....If you are on a fixed income....He should pay for your lawyer.....or find a lawyer that will do it pro bono....Usually you can find one at the courthouse....Go early in the morning and there are lawyers there that will help you out....Don't stay with him.....It will never change...only get worse.....I went through 21 years of this....The last four years were simply horrible....He was bringing the women home, sleeping with them in my bed.....I slept on the couch the last two years....I also started to drink at night to cope....Now I am in AA.....I wasn't a drinker at all prior to this.....I needed to self medicate to cope with my life....Sad to say my youngest son is a lot like him.....If I had only left I know in my heart....he wouldn't of become like his father.....Now I feel guilty for not leaving when I found out......No matter what...It is never good to stay in that kind of relationship....My husband was always searching for happiness in all the wrong places....He never did become truly happy...It is about him...and his problem....Not about you....Don't take on his problem.....You or nothing else will make him happy....trust me......