Mommy Guilt!

Updated on September 28, 2010
E.M. asks from Boulder, CO
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Our 2.5 year old has been having a hard time settling down at night lately. Tonight we put her in her crib (she wasn't happy and was crying and screaming off and on but we knew she was just mad--not sad or needing comfort). So after about 5 mins. the pitch of the screams start to change and we wonder what to do? She is really being a pill, we think. So now our 5 year old is awake and being a pest so I go in to settle her first while this horrible screaming goes on. Finally, I go into get the baby and help her settle back down on to find her lying with her leg twisted and stuck through the bars. She must have tried to climb out and fallen back with her leg at a funny angle. My husband had to help unwedge her leg/foot. I felt soooo bad. I am glad my instinct at least told me she needed me (even though I am kicking myself for not going sooner) I worry that if I am ever not home my husband would just let her scream herself to sleep and wouldn't check. I can't bear to think about it. I just held her and hugged her and wanted to cry my eyes out feeing like a horribly, neglectful, abusive mother. Am I a terrible mother?

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L.U.

answers from Seattle on

Nope. I remember coming in the morning to get my son when he was about 11/2 or 2. He was still in a crib. He was sleeping in his own vomit!! OMG, I felt like the worst parent ever. He didn't even make a sound, just puked and went back to sleep! Talk about guilt.
Don't worry about your husband. Just say something today about how awful you feel and that you are so glad you went in to check on her. It will stay with him that she got her leg stuck too.
Unless we are beating our kids I don't think there is much that we should feel guilty about, it's just part of learning to be a parent!!
L.

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S.B.

answers from Kansas City on

no. it happens to the best of us. I felt terrible when my daughter had been throwing a fit one day, so when I put her to bed and she continued her fit, i decided to let her cry it out. when she finally fell asleep, I went to check on her and she was sleeping in her own vomit. Score one for the terrible mommy guilt!

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T.H.

answers from Kansas City on

Oh goodness, this exact thing happened to me! It's hard to listen to your instincts when you're so tired and ready for them to go to bed! I've done it too when you hear their cry change and you think to youself that you should go, but then you second guess b/c you don't want drama! Don't feel bad. She's totally fine and we've all been there. My guess is that if you're not there Hubby would go in too. I know my husband always sort of defers to me when we're both home b/c I deal with them more and I'm also more of a stickler for the rules ;) but if he's by himself, he would probably do exactly what needs to be done and I'm sure your hubby would too!

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M.B.

answers from New York on

We all have Mommy guilt at some point!! Over a year ago I was at Great adventure withh my daughter who was 2 at the time, she tried to run away from me and I held onto her wrist and I dislocated her elbow!! I cried more than she did! After we went to the ER and the dr. popped it back in (took 2 secs) she was saying sorry to me!! To this day when i think about it I feel like the worst mom in the world!! I think moving her to a toddler bed at this point would be a good idea or just put a matress on the floor. My 2nd wouldn't stay in her crib past 15 mos so I put a full size matress on the floor and it worked out great!! Good luck and don't beat yourself up!!

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N.L.

answers from Los Angeles on

Oh my goodness NO you are not a terrible mother!!!

I can seriously relate to the "what if I wasn't home and hubs let my baby cry" feeling. When my daughter was about 2 months old she cried and screamed for what seemed like forever. My hubs told me to put her in her bassinette and let her CIO. I was like"NO way!!". Within a few seconds she let out this enormous burp and settled down, fell asleep hard. Honestly, my DH felt bad. For weeks all I could think about was what if I had put her down and just let her cry while this air bubble was causing her pain thus her crying. Thoughts went through my head of what if I hadn't been home, he just put her down and walked away.

Anyway those sad feelings diminished in time and until I read your post I completely had forgotten about it!! LOL

It's so obvious how much you love your baby!! She is fine. Keep holding her and hugging her =-)

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J.S.

answers from Minneapolis on

Been there, done that :) You're doing fine. I had the exact same thing happen when my daughter was about 17 months. I was working on night weaning her, so I hesitated to go in but her cry was pretty intense so I did and her leg was stuck. I felt terrible, but not as bad as when she rolled off the changing table. Geez, I am a bad mom.... we could all make a list I'm pretty sure.

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K.A.

answers from Little Rock on

I think it is time for the transition to a toddler bed with folding gate at the door to keep her from wandering around or you from having to continually put her back in her room. I put all of mine in a toddler bed with a gate at the door at 18 months.

As far as the fit throwing, my daughter went through a stage of that just few months after turning 2. It lasted for about a month. I never knew what started it since she had always been a good sleeper and had not given us any problems since about 6-9 months old until then. I guess it was just a stage. Don't give into her or you will have a harder time getting past the stage. With mine, I think she did not like the idea of having to go to bed before mom and dad. I seem to remember both of my boys doing the same thing at some point. I remember that one night with my oldest, we had put him to bed and we had stayed up for an hour or so doing our income taxes. The idea was that we could do them without interruption. He drove us nuts crying and fussing because he knew we were up. We end up have to do the taxes in our bedroom with nothing but a lamp to see by and a towel shoved under the door. His room was where he could see our bedroom door so he still knew we were up until we cut off the main light and put the towel under the door. We also had to talk in whispers.

J.B.

answers from Houston on

Of course not! These things happen and really men do step up when we aren't around. Have you thought of trying the whole toddler bed thing yet? Maybe she is ready and then you wouldn't have to worry about her getting caught up in the crib. But let go of the guilt, I did that myself recently with my 8 month old, I felt like a dog!!! But you know we aren't perfect, just parents and you comforted her and went to her and that is what matters in the end.

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