L.F.
A., I truly understand how you are feeling. It is so hard when you are trying to be the best MAMA and wife you can be and are haunted by traumatic memories of the past. It feels like the whole world is caving in on you and it's heartbreaking. Please know that my only concern with going to a psychologist/therapist is that they may try to lead you in the direction of medication rather than get to the root of what's causing you to feel the way you do. I definitely know from personal experience psych medications do more harm than good and that, in fact, there are many natural solutions that can actually help with what you are going through.
I was very fortunate that when I was suffered very similar feelings many years ago a very good friend of mine recommended DIANETICS (http://www.dianetics.org/) to me. WOW! That was the magic that helped me deal with my trauma naturally and get me back to feeling like my cheerful self. I love that with DIANETICS no one evaluates you or tries to drug you. It's truly about you. You can always watch the DIANETICS video at: http://www.dianetics.org/#/videos.
I'd also recommend checking out 2 organizations validating why going the natural route is best for you and your family:
http://www.cchr.org/
http://www.labelmesane.com/
You'll also find some amazing data regarding alternatives at:
http://www.cchr.org/solutions_and_alternatives/
And, please watch:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Xjx0gdL83I
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MRJN_NfyiH4
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KgMovNmtRF0&feature=user
http://www.psychconflicts.org/
http://www.cchr.org/#/videos/making-a-killing-introduction
I send this data with love. I know from personal experience the heartbreak of anxiety, depression and PTSD and how it truly affects not just the person but also everyone around him/her, and I also know that it is so worth it to give Dianetics a chance.
Please free to contact me at: (323) 906~2784 or via e~mail me at ____@____.com.
I'd love to help you however I can.
With love,
L. (MAMA to 17 month old Dylan Orion....29 September 2007) : )))