There's a line in my favorite TV show (spooks) where one of the operatives is begging for her life. It's a long diatribe and it finishes up with "....and I HATE my kitchen."
ROFL... yeah. The fact that that is an actual "bucket list" item is just sooooo true. A kitchen I don't hate.
I'm part you, part Jane, and part This Old House (before pictures).
It's decorated in my mind.
Actually, if you want to get right on down to it... it's two and a half times the SIZE in my mind.
My house is something of an ongoing embarrassment. It neither looks, nor feels, the way I WANT it to. But it's home.
It needs about 10k in work for the space I already have to 'finish' it...and about 100k in work to REALLY "finish" it (but we're talking building costs, as well). Since I don't happen to have either a spare 10k laying around, much less 100k... I tackle projects as both time and money come available. And the house ALWAYS takes fourth seat to plane tickets, fun stuff (classes, concerts), and necessary stuff (yes, this is in reverse order). I bought a 100 year old tiny fixer upper/starter home. The UPSIDE is that I made sure it's "livable", but it is definitely screaming for work to be done.
I'm used to moving every 2 years. So having been here THREE and having things such and ongoing disaster is HIGHLY vexing... but this is the first house I've OWNED.
So I've got 75 black picture frames in the basement (and the wood for reflooring the upstairs), and torn out drywall, and a HIDEOUS kitchen, and no elbow room, and a half finished fence (the bottom portion is done, but the decorative top 1/4 has to wait on good weather and $ for wood), and only 1 bathroom (a key problem since the toilet is currently broken, and when stomach flu hits 3 people and 1 bathroom when it's *functional* just plain. isn't. enough., and no fireplace (in a land where it rains 10mo a year, and stairs that need ripping out, and a backyard that's half torn out, and, and, and, and. ((The problem of only using cash is that sometimes there IS no cash))
But it's home.
And I can see what it WILL look like in my mind.