M.L.
Hi S.,
no one partner in a relationship should be calling the shots. There should be reasonable discussions, pros and cons and decisions made in the best interest of your family. You need to be respectful of your husbands feelings and limits. He is being clear that having another child on top of his existing responsibilities and educational goals is too much - and that's really not unreasonable. If he was saying no kids ever - than that's a relationship difference that might not be able to be resolved, but since he's saying he needs security first - is really quite admirable. You're 19 and frankly, have another 19 years to possibly be making babies. I know that's not the point, but focus your attention on having a stress free supportive and loving home. Perhaps with that type of security your husband will warm to the idea of your family growing.
We have 2 young children and my husband is in graduate school. Despite the strong relationship we have - his commitments are very stressful on the whole family. I remember imaging getting pregnant when my 1st was very young, but the older she got - the more work she demanded and I realized she needed my attention then - not to be divided between another child. Your daughter will never feel "replaced" b/c you're the mom and will give all your kids the same amount of love and affection (but be warned - to do that means less and less time for you and a greater demand of patience, motivation, hard work , and creativity). 2 kids is NOT the same as 1 kid. MUCH more work. As fun as it is to have a sibling so close in age - the best thing you can do is secure your daughters confidence and self esteem by giving her a strong foundation leading up to an expansion of your family.
Sit back, enjoy your daughter and the many stages she's about to get into, and be a loving supportive wife. You and your husband need to be a solid team first. The fact that divorce would even be suggested demonstrates that you guys aren't there yet - and not surprisingly - I think it takes years to get there. Just love your family and do your best to fill your home with peace and support and joy. Don't go picking fights or waste time feeling hurt for not getting what you want. That's what being a team is. Be proud and grateful that you are married to a man who wants you guys to have a strong foundation and let him know it.
Then you both will know when your home is ready for more kiddos.
Good luck to you.
sorry, if this isn't what you wanted to hear from a stranger! I just had to be honest.