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Actually you do sound OCD. It's not uncommon for OCD to swing back and forth from completely engrossed to ignoring it totally.
I think it has to do with the compulsion to get it perfect. If you can't, then you want to give up entirely.
I can only focus on ONE thing at a time. By all means, I am not bragging. I mean I COMPLETELY forget (like it never existed) any past project I was working on.
For instance, I barter a lot (I'm a graphic designer/printer) and I was trading constantly for diamonds/gold with a jewelry store in Long Island. And it is like all I think about, like an addiction "How can I promote my work so I can get some more trade dollars to spend"..........
Then it's the gym. I join a gym. I'm consumed with reading EVERY strength training book I can get on to my Kindle.
The past few weeks? MAKING MY BACKYARD LOOK LIKE IT WAS ON HGTV!!
Not going to the gym AT ALL, breaking my back shoveling dirt......and today I get a transaction notice from my bartering club and I'm like "Oh yah, I haven't checked to see if there is any new jewelry in awhile......" (I was checking daily on their website so I didn't miss anything good). And I have not checked in at least a month!
I drive my husband nuts, he will say "How could you forget about _____?"
*Well, it was quite easy honestly...........
What is wrong with me? Or am I "normal" or maybe I AM OCD.....I do obsess.....
Actually you do sound OCD. It's not uncommon for OCD to swing back and forth from completely engrossed to ignoring it totally.
I think it has to do with the compulsion to get it perfect. If you can't, then you want to give up entirely.
That ain't OCD! Ya actually sound disorganized.
I am ADHD and even I don't see myself anywhere in your story. Meh, maybe if I wasn't organized....
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Huh? @ other answer. OCD is an anxiety disorder. You cannot be comfortable unless specific rituals are met. You do not swing at all.
OCD has become slang for anal retentive but that isn't the disorder at all.
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You are not OCD - do some reading on it please.
You are not ADD - again do some reading on it please.
You get focused on one project to the exclusion of all others - you get excited about a new "thing" and want to do only that. Um, fairly normal, unless that momentary preoccupation with just the one new thing is causing you to neglect the other responsibilities that you have.
In which case you need to learn to prioritize and organize.
Make a list
Make yourself a schedule
etc.
preoccupied, and coupled with a short attention span, kinda normal for some. If it disrupts your daily life, and makes problems for others, get it checked. Otherwise start being more organized, use some reminders and notes to help.
More like an adult with ADHD...
ocd.. add and adhd are distracted by everything.. they cannot focus on anything.. ocd has single focus on one thing...
of course most folks are in the middle somewhere.. my hub is more ocd -- his mind is on one thing only.. and I am more add...constantly have 10 things half done.
If you are then I am right there with you!
I really don't think there is anything "wrong" with us, it's just not typical.
Not everything needs a diagnosis, she says with a rye smile and defensive position.
I don't "have" to do anything. Not OCD like. But I do enjoy things "intensely". I enjoy things done well, sometimes to the exclusion of what's practical or even necessary. Like the guys on Big Bang Theroy. I want to know everything about it. And when I am done, I am done, finished.
I really enjoy learning. I also enjoy teaching others who want to learn. but when I have wrung every single drop of joy out of it, well...
I think it was more a typical thing in the Renaissance period. We are living in the wrong age. There, that didn't sound prideful at all, did it? Lol
I have to be very careful about addictions. Things that I consider somehow bad for me, physically, emotionally, mentally or spiritually. If I am really into something and decide it is bad for me then I quit it, cold turkey. Drop it like a hot rock. I don't even look back. The gold thing, was good for a moment in time.
I am much better about balance with age and my steady as a rock, H. That really should be your goal. Balance. I have a necklace I made choosing the word, balance because I understand my need for it.
By the way, gardening is so much harder than the Gym!! It's also very good to work off extra anxiety and energy. You can understand the roll of God in your life so much better when you can plant and water and labor over growing things but there is only God who can give the increase. Kind of like life. You can struggle and organize and be dilligent but only God can bring Good out of it. So live the life you have been given. Trust God to bring Good out of it.
Your H is lucky to have someone with such a zest for life and the potential to become more well rounded in the future! By the way, I am a self taught artist/photographer, too. It's the thing in my life that I bring to every endeavor or passion. Besides H and God, it's my most consistent thing.
You can certainly focus but when you do it's to the exclusion of everything else.
I think that's the 'obsessive' talking.
I do this all the time.
When I'm working on something I am totally into it.
I need a sticky tab note to mark where I was with something before I put it down so I can pick up where I left off.
I think OCD is more of an impulse problem - you are compelled to keep things in a certain order and you can't ignore your impulse to arrange it in that order if it gets out of your definition of organized.
I think of ADD as someone who has trouble concentrating on one thing for very long - they jump from one task to the next and have a hard time finishing anything.
So although OCD and ADD are often described as opposites, I don't think either really describes what you do.
OCD can be obsessive thoughts without the need for rituals such as handwashing, repetitive checking, etc which cause anxiety if they are not performed. My son is being treated for the obsessive thoughts type of OCD which is part of his anxiety disorder.
The key is to recognizing when you are caught in the obsessive thought loop and refocusing. It more than "just being unorganized". You can be an organized person and still have obessive thoughts that consume you and throw off your well made plans.
Have it checked out by a professional and it would be helpful if your husband was with you. He may see things you are unaware of and this could help tease out the diagnosis of OCD, ADHD, etc. if you are looking for one and how to treat it.
actually you do sound OCD, you are compulsive in your attention to ONE issue. :) OCD is not always directed towards everything, but can be just one part of life....which your are describing!
this also falls under ADD...in the middle of all of your scatterbrained issues, you are highly-focused on just one thing. That's something the counselor mentioned about our son....he saw nothing else in his world, except what was holding his focus. He does not multi-task, nor does he remember a danged thing we tell him if in a sequence!
talk to the dr.....& good luck!
Another aspect of ADD is hyper focus on things of interest. My son's doctor suggested that ADD has more to do with motivation. People with ADD have difficulties doing anything that is not highly rewarding. And OCD? Well that often goes hand in hand with ADD.