T.C.
Well, you are in a very tough spot. I highly encourage you to live with your parents if they will let you. While there, work hard to help around the house. Do the dishes, clean the bathrooms, keep your room clean, cook dinner (if you don't know how, learn!). Be a blessing to them. Make them thankful that you are there. It's a great opportunity for them to develop a deep relationship with your child. Ask for their counsel. What would they like you to do? It's time for you to start acting like an adult. Get the teenager mentality out of your vocabulary and mind. It is gone now. You are an adult. You have a child. No more time for playing. I'm not saying you are, but sometimes we get to feeling sorry for ourselves and what we "should be able to be doing." I'm so proud of you for having your baby, even though you knew your life would be more difficult. It shows great character on your part. You'll be fine, eventually, but these next few years will probably not be all fun and games for you. Blessings.