A.B.
Hi Molly,
I read your post. Even though I have not endured a miscarriage, I just wanted to write this post and send you hugs. I have tears in my eyes and I'm all choked up. I can't really imagine what you are going through and I think you must be a really strong person.
In October I was developing pregnancy symptoms. I never took a pregnancy test and had no proof whatsoever that I was possibly pregnant at all. The symptoms totally disappeared, my body went back to normal. Yet I couldn't shake the feeling that I had been pregnant and then I wasn't. I told myself I was being ridiculous and overemotional. I told myself to be sensible and I wouldn't let myself feel the sadness that kept washing over me. I still don't KNOW if I was ever pregnant, but just the thought that I could have lost a baby (whether I did or not)upset me. So, although I don't understand what you are going through, I still wanted to reach out and offer you support.
I have a 20 month old, too :-) Perhaps focusing on what's good in your life will help? Look into your child's eyes and just know and enjoy the miracle you have right before you.
I'm sending you big hugs and wish you lots of courage and blessings for when you feel ready to try for another child.