Go to a thrift shop and buy a new one. ;) Sounds easier than trying to clean the one you have. They are a pain! :)
I loved your comment, "I don't know how you could be complete in your life without children".. because I feel the same way. It isn't a passing whim, it's life changing and so right. There is no love quite like it, the love of your own child. And that goes both ways.
Being a mom of teens, as they start to push away, I've been really depressed lately not knowing quite what it is that's bothering me. This has to be it. They've found other interests that don't include me anymore. But I have to let them go and grow. And I still get to feel their love and appreciation now and then, so I cherish those moments as they come.
Sometimes depressed,
Val