omg Samantha R - you hang in there!
And for anyone else dealing with any level of depression - ya'll, my heart goes out to you.
Its hard to deal with life as a human being, but as a woman - its like a double whammy!
I've never suffered from depression. Maybe a bit when I gave birth. I remember crying uncontrollably when someone asking what I wanted them to bring over for dinner - chicken or beef? - because I couldn't bring myself to decide. (I don't think they ever brought anything over after that!). But nothing compared what some women go through.
I hate that there are some women in this world who feel alone and helpless. I hate that some (like Robin Williams) feel suicide is the only option. Everyone needs a friend - someone to walk beside them, hold their hand, no matter the emotional cost. But our society isn't designed that way. I try to help where I can. That's why I volunteer at a women's shelter for battered women. Talk about depression! Those woman have major life issues. Sometimes they contemplate suicide. Sometimes they just need someone to talk to. Sometimes they need someone to hold their hand and let them cry.
Prayers and hugs to ya'll.