S.D.
do you really HAVE to go back to work ? could you cut back in the areas you spend and live a little more simply to be able to be with her ? i empathize for you. the only advice i can share, having done the same thing with my second child at 6 weeks post pardum - yeesh! - is, you get used to it, but it is heart breaking at first - just stay VERY busy at work so you don't have too much time to think about it and the day goes by faster. if the caregiver is family maybe they could visit you at lunch time with her a couple times a week. my husband would bring my son to my work 2x week so i could breastfeed him and hug him. good luck !