S.,
I have two on the spectrum, my youngest was nonverbal until she was 3. It is very hard, isn't it? I struggle with it sometimes, and other times I feel very strong. I wish I knew how I would feel about it from day to day. When I am down, I think that it is my fault, and I give in to the idea that the people who stare are right, that if I had "just spanked that little girl" she would be better. Other times I feel fiesty about it and don't care what anybody thinks because I know that it is nothing I did.
I know what you mean though, I often wonder what is under the autism, becasue there is somthing beneath the surface. My kids both talk now, and we struggle with word order, and often they both say things that I cannot even begin to understand, and I have to remind myself that it is a blessing that they talk at all. When my youngest gets up this morning, we will once agian have that discussion that it is not "what today is it?" it is "what day is today" everyday, we have it, and today will be no different, but we have to have this before she can go on and eat her identical breakfast to yesterday, and go about the difficult task of getting her clothes to feel right and negotiate about the taste of the toothpaste.
I hope that you have found a good school. Where are you? We have been lucky enough to find Oakstone Academy in Columbus for our oldest (asperger) she is doing so well there, and they do wonders with kids all along the spectrum. What kind of school have you found?