B.W.
Sweetheart, I've been praying for you. Hang in there. Remember you are pregnant and hormones do terrible things to us sometimes. Having a 2 year old is difficult, too, and your husband's job sounds like it really stinks. I know things are awful in your marriage right now, but I would hang in there for the kids sakes. Things may get better after the baby comes. You say you have terrible pregnancies, and this could easily explain what is going on with you right now. You can't change your husband's behavior, no matter how hard you try. You can only change yours and hope he responds. This will probably sound crazy to you, but try reading Dr. Laura's "Proper care and feeding of husbands." I know it sounds old fashioned and sexist, but it really does help understand how men think. Your poor guy works long hours and has a lot on his shoulders. Maybe there's something about having a 2 year old, because I felt like bailing out of my marriage when my son was 2. Now he is 18 and I have two other beautiful teenagers and I've been married 22 years. Sometimes you just have to hang in there through the awful times. Marriage seems to be like a roller coaster ride through life. At least you are able to be home with your little ones and that means so much. Try to find a women's group to join, something at a church, or a playgroup for your daughter where you can meet other moms to talk to. Being isolated at home is bad. I made that mistake. I know how hard it is to get out with a little one, but it really is what you need. You may want to see your doctor, too, since you are having trouble sleeping and eating. Perhaps your doctor could help. I'll be thinking about you and praying for you.
B.